SMH..Am I? Can I? Wiliing? The Cost....

Have I counted the cost? Am I willing to give my life so someone else can live? Am I really down with Jesus?Can I be spit on? Talked about? Crucified? Give up all my possessions? Bear  my cross daily? Am I willing to die for this cause I say I believe in? Have. I. Really.Counted.The.Cost. Smh...a rude awakening just voyage past  my nice christian life. Have I been living a lie? Is it God that im coming for on Sundays? Do I really want to be set free? Do my comfortablities make me feel more secure than Jesus? Am I really choosing death when I don't choose Christ? Am I about to die? Or am I already dead? Walking around like I havent even begun to live. Is the bread I take every Sunday a fake sacrament to a God I think I know. Is the wine a sign of his blood for my sins or am I drowning in a false sense of religion disguised as righteous living. Mmm..like life flashing before my eyes it was like I saw God saying choose them/those things or Christ! Because whatever your decision is you are going to die regardless. But the difference is if you die to me that is the very way you will find Life in Me. But if you die to this world all your deeds wont be able to secure your way out of the hell that you will be placed. And the irony of it all is that is a decision We, Us, I have to make because I choose ultimately whether I put myself in hell or I put myself in the swelling life of abundance Christ crucified, died, rose for me completely so on this side of heaven I could live free. Free to claim the Truth and spread my testimony of how I was broken,battered, ugly, and stained But Christ died for the lame. Lame was I but in Him I am unstained, unashamed for He rose so that my name could be changed. So as I sit in the second row pew staring Christ in His face while he whispers to me, Jasmine, Are you willing to choose me? Jasmine! Are you willing to be free? And take on the responsibility of living in me? What more signs do you need? I have showed you visions, gave them to others to confirm your mission, but you continue to choose other people and things who have not died for your sins or even come close to giving you life to live. Jasmine, will you choose me? Jesus said to me. We must remove our limitations on what we are willing to sacrifice for God and to get where God has destined for us to go. We must be willing to SACRIFICE more in order to reach higher. You should never stop trying to reach higher until the day you die. We must rise up! Before our time is up! Be Conscious, Enlightened, Educated, Esteemed beings and Strive for Excellence in all we do. After all our ancestors were tortured, hanged, beating, raped, disdained, given new names, stripped of our heritage, protesting, preaching, teaching, investing in one another and many other things just so we could Rise Up and do the same for the next generation to come.

Meditation

Why did He choose me? Me little old me, simple old me, quiet old me. To do bold, eloquent and beautiful things. To transform, shift and ignite lives. To share my sorrows. To share my weaknesses. To share my frailties and oh my how God mutated my pain to Glorify His name. Mutated me into a spiritual being. Creation of implantation with His breath. To spark the fire of my life. To run rampant for His claim. Take me away! Take me away! JESUS! All for your name!

Wrestle

After Jacob was done wrestling with God he came out with a broken hip because he would not stop until the Lord blessed him. After you wrestle with God you dont come out the same. Just as Jacob came out walking different so will you. We all face times when we have to wrestle with God. And I mean wrestle! On your knees, prostrate, crying out....but just wrestle with Him until your deliverance is complete! Your healing is done! Until you are SET FREE from whatever is keeping you from moving to a higher place with God. I am so in awe of God. Yes! Yes! Yes! I say Yes to God! Im moving today to a higher place with and in God! I am Brave, Bold, Courageous!! God is taking me to unfathomable places. Wrestle with Him and dont move until you hear from the Lord.

Push Through.Fight Through. No Defeat.

Lately the struggle to keep pushing has gotten real. When you know you should be striving for excellence the voices in your head to tell you you can't and the vision seems to be skewed. You know what God told you, you know who you belong to you, you know the strength lies within you, but you just can't seem to shake this feeling of heaviness. I know I get it because I'm there. But just as the Sun rises every day we to rise the same and we determine how our day will be. Everything that we need to accomplish whatever it is that God gave us already lies with in us. The key to me seems to be studying the word praying and meditating and spending that intimate time with God. Also accountability partners is huge! Reach out to your peers and elders. Be honest. Confess your shortcomings and allow God to use them for His glory. You are called to do great things! Trust God! Allow Him to be Lord over your life. Evaluate yourself daily. Know your strengths, weaknesses, what your body craves & when, dont give into your flesh. You are more spirit than flesh. Start thanking God now! Dont be defeated! Make a gratitude list and look over it and add to it daily. "Count your many blessings, name them one by one and it will surprise you what the Lord has done." -Anonymous

Because of Jesus,

Jasmine Nicole

Hover over me Lord

Today my prayer is that God will fill me up today. That His love will overflow and permeate all my soul. My prayer is the same for you all today! Im at this point in my journey where I want to be Free and Transparent. The closer I fill my break through is coming the more challenging the journey gets. But God!!! He is so Worthy!! He loves us so much! Make Him Lord over your life. Put Him back in His place and that is being the Cornerstone in our lives. Wrestle with God until your break through comes! I was talking with someone about the book of Genesis and God beginning to create. And before God began to create  He hovered over the waters and after that He began to create everything. And her desire is for God to hover over the unforned places in her life. I was like yesss Lord!! Hover over me. Form the unformed places in my life to your desires for me.  Wow! That is such a beautiful prayer and I pray that you will also ask God to do the same in your life. Stay connected, get accountability partners, confess, repent, wrestle with God until your in His presence Hard! Its time to be free! Someone's life depends on you pressing through!! Yes its hard! Yes it hurts!! Yes people dont like you! Yes no one gets it sometimes! Yes your always the one who has to Love first, Forgive first and so on! But the Grace of God is holding you. And by God's Grace you are able to do all things and get through all things!!! Hallelujah! Amen.#Tell