Surrender

What does it mean to surrender to God?  Im at at point in my journey where all I truly want is God, but its hard! Sometimes it feels like my obediance to God causes me more pain  than it should. Then I start to think back on where my best thinking got me. I start to think how I chose bad relationships that could have taken me out. I start to think about how my searching for love in the wrong places could have killed me. I start to think about how my plans could have completely distorted Gods plans for my life. Then I become grateful because God has ALWAYS been there. He has always loved me despite me. I believe that this season of my life God has been showing me his agape love. A love that cannot compare to any other. Sometimes I get tired of the seasons of suffering but im glad because God is taking me higher, instilling more wisdom, building my testimony, sharpening my spiritual skills, producing a harvest to be reaped greater than I can imagine. The awesome thing is that your pain, my pain, our pain is not in vain. Its for purpose. We are pained for Gods Purpose. Our hurts, setbacks, failures, falls, shortcomings, weaknesses will always be used by Him for His Glory! So surrender! Surrender your heart, your pain, your self sabotaging thinking. Surrender and withhold nothing. We think that by holding onto it, it makes us stronger to defeat what were holding onto, but in reality its just an illusion it makes us weaker and gives God the inability to work on our behalf. Cornelius Lindsey of the Gathering Oasis Church in Atlanta said in his sermon that letting go looks like this in my recollection: he said that its like we are holding on to a cliff with our bare hands and our friends,even some of your church friends may be up there, money, all our desires are on top of this cliff and there saying to come on, climb up, you can have everything you want. Its all here, this is the life. Then below is a voice saying let go, trust me and beneath all you can see is clouds. And your in between both sides wondering what to do and you want to let go but your afraid and you dont know where you will land but there is a voice saying trust me. Then you let one hand go and your still holding on. Your afraid and you keep looking down and all you see is clouds and then finally you let go and trust that voice. And as you begin to fall you look up and the things you thought that were important appear to be just an illusion. It wasnt even real and your falling and falling and then you fall through those clouds that you saw way up as you were holding on to the cliff and suddenly....you land on solid ground. Wow! And then you see that nothing at the top of that cliff was real. It was an illusion!! Wow! That is what its like when we are about to surrender to God. That is what its like when I had to surrender everything to God. I had to give God my unforgiveness, my pain from being a broken lonely girl who felt alone. I had to surrender my father who couldnt be a father to me, my mother who couldnt love me because she didnt have the capacity to love me, my self sabotaging behaviors, my low self esteem, my low self concept, my pain, my hurt....I had to surrender to God so that these things and more could be released and detached from my life! (hallelujah) God is so loving. He loves me so much and you. Allow His love to mature in you. Allow His love to germinate the roots of your heart. Let Him in. I am not perfect. Ive been through crap caused by my on way and trials caused by satan but GOD!! I say Yes to God. To His love.  Im not always the easiest person to love. But God loves me despite and past my pain and defenses.  What helps me to enter into the presence of God in my intimate time with the Lord is to worship to Witholding Nothing a worship song. Meditate on this and allow Gods love to exude all of you. His Love is for real and like no other. It's not easy but life with God is so much better than without Him.

XoXo,



Witholding Nothing- William McDonald


I surrender all to you
Everything I give to you
withholding nothing
withholding nothing

withholding nothing
withholding nothing

withholding nothing
withholding nothing

withholding nothing
withholding nothing

Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near.

Isaiah 55:6 NIV