The Ugly Chronicles

When life is not picture perfect it can be quite upsetting. When things are not flowing and going as planned that can get a bit overwhelming. When your expectations and standards superceed into the realm of unattainable, it can be very upsetting when things fail to turn out how you desire them to. As I planned my year and thought of a word to guide me through my year, the word "surrender" immediately came to mine. Surrender, I thought was good! I thought, "I can surrender and give everything to God." Then the work begins to happen and experiences and emotions begin to stir and I think "surrender?" really...I don't know that I can. This year is my 29th year and as I enter into the year of 30 I so desire to become as close to whole and spirit led as possible. In the third month of my 29th year on this planet called earth, I fill the void of unfinished business and stagnation. What use to work to bring me some sort of sufficiency no longer works. I willingly ask God to remove, strip, transform me, to show me the ugliness that realms within me, to cleanse me and I have to admit this process hasn't been easy. Nor does the enemy want this transformation to take place so the enemy isn't fighting fair and using all his tactics and tricks.

Be Prepared For The Answer To Your Prayer

What do you do the day you wake up and realize that everything you thought you were in your Faith, your not? What if someone came your way and told you that your life as a "Christian" is not what it is supposed to be. What if you discovered that the power you have been operating in has not been the power of God, but your own power or some other spirit? What happens when God flips the tables in your life and tells you to exit from His temple? What do you do from here?

My last month can be described as one of Agitation, Excavation and Realization. God has been agitating everything I thought I knew about my Faith and who I am in Christ. He has began to uproot things I became comfortable in and with. He has given me realization of who He is and His expectations. So where do you go from here when the comfort in your ways of thinking are uprooted and now your Exposed and Naked.

I was not prepared for my the answer but now that I am here...what will I do?